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.Most perilousare the unconscious sympathies directing you to preserve your enemy intactbecause the enemy is your justification for existence.""Sir?"How could that piping voice become the commanding tones of the old Bashar?"What is it?""Why are you just standing there looking at me?""They called the Bashar 'Old Reliability.' Did you know that?""Yes, sir.I've studied the story of his life."Was it "Young Reliability" now? Why did Odrade want his original memoriesrestored so quickly?"Because of the Bashar, the entire Sisterhood has been digging into OtherMemory, revising their views of history.Did they tell you that?""No, sir.Is it important for me to know? Mother Superior said you would trainmy muscles.""You liked to drink Danian Marinete, a very fine brandy, I recall.""I'm too young to drink, sir.""You were a Mentat.Do you know what that means?""I'll know when you restore my memories, won't I?"No respectful sir.Calling the teacher to task for unwanted delays.Idaho smiled and got a grin in response.An engaging child.Easy to show himnatural affection."Watch out for him," Odrade had said."He's a charmer."Idaho recalled Odrade's briefing before bringing the child. "Since every individual is accountable ultimately to the self," she said, "theformation of that self demands our utmost care and attention.""Is that necessary with a ghola?"They had been in Idaho's sitting room that night, Murbella a fascinatedlistener."He will remember everything you teach him.""So we do a little editing of the original.""Careful, Duncan! Give a bad time to an impressionable child, teach that childnot to trust anyone, and you create a suicide -- slow or fast suicide, doesn'tmake any difference.""Are you forgetting that I knew the Bashar?""Don't you remember, Duncan, how it was before your memories were restored?""I knew the Bashar could do it and I thought of him as my salvation.""And that's how he sees you.It's a special kind of trust.""I'll treat him honestly.""You may think you act from honesty but I advise you to look deeply intoyourself every time you come face to face with his trust.""And if I make a mistake?""We will correct it if possible." She glanced up at the comeyes and back tohim."I know you'll be watching us!""Don't let it inhibit you.I'm not trying to make you self-conscious.Justcautious.And remember that my Sisterhood has efficient methods of healing.""I'll be cautious.""You might remember it was the Bashar who said: 'The ferocity we display to ourfoes is always tempered by the lesson we hope to teach.' ""I can't think of him as a foe.The Bashar was one of the finest men I've everknown.""Excellent.I place him in your hands."And here the child was on the practice floor getting more than a littleimpatient with his teacher's hesitations."Sir, is this part of a lesson, just standing here? I know sometimes --""Be still." Teg came to military attention.No one had taught him that.This was from hisoriginal memories.Idaho was suddenly fascinated by this glimpse of the Bashar.They knew he would catch me this way!Never underestimate Bene Gesserit persuasiveness.You could find yourself doingthings for them without knowing pressures had been applied.Subtle anddamnable! There were compensations, of course.You lived in interesting times,as the ancient curse had it.All in all, Idaho decided, he preferredinteresting times, even these times.He took a deep breath."Restoring your original memories will cause pain --physical and mental.In some ways, the mental pains are worse.I am to prepareyou for that."Still at attention.No comment."We will begin without weapons, using an imaginary blade in your right hand.This is a variation on the 'five attitudes.' Each response arises before theneed.Drop your arms to your sides and relax."Moving behind Teg, Idaho grasped the child's right arm below the elbow anddemonstrated the first movements."Each attacker is a feather floating on an infinite path.As the featherapproaches, it is diverted and removed.Your response is like a puff of airblowing the feather away."Idaho stepped aside and observed as Teg repeated the movements, correctingoccasionally with a sharp blow to an offending muscle."Let your body do the learning!" When Teg asked why he did that.In a rest period, Teg wanted to know what Idaho meant by "mental pains.""You have ghola-imposed walls around your original memories.At the propermoment, some of those memories will come flooding back.Not all memories willbe pleasant.""Mother Superior says the Bashar restored your memories.""Gods of the deep, child! Why do you keep saying 'the Bashar'? That was you!""But I don't know that yet.""You present a special problem.For a ghola to reawaken, there should be memoryof death.But the cells for you do not carry death memory.""But the.Bashar is dead.""The Bashar! Yes, he's dead.You must feel that where it hurts most and knowthat you are the Bashar
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